[... That is a lot more gentle than usual, and Goro's not really sure what to do with it. Silver didn't even call him stupid. Goro lifts his hands to Silver's though, not exactly pulling them off just yet, and exhales quietly. Squeezing them a bit.]
I know he won't, but... it's... quite the fear of mine, that I'll say something wrong or too odd and that'll be the end of it. That doesn't apply just to him either, it's to everyone.
[His other self-- or... the person he's reconstructed from? The him from the other reality. That person is lonely and unhappy, Goro can feel it in different memories and only recently had a few memories that included the warmth of companionship, of something similar to friendship and the small pleasure that comes with it. He's better off than that person now, but he wasn't always. Exclusion is a childhood friend he lost contact with sometime in high school.
He shakes his head, pulling Silver's hands off this time and putting his face in his own instead. A heavier exhale, though he does seem calmer than just before.]
Even if I know it's a stupid thing to think and fear, it won't go away. Maybe he should have called me handful instead of beautisome... I know I can be. Like now. [A beat.] Sorry, you said not to put myself down about it, that's exactly what I'm doing.
Akira likes me, enough that he doesn't mind me hitting on him -- new development, I don't do it often but I'd like to, I want to fluster him as much as he does me -- or maybe he just doesn't care? And he's kissed me a few times now too, though I am certain that's just to tease me. I want to actually kiss him-- this must be weird to hear, I'm sorry.
[He needs to learn to shut up. Take it easy, Silver said. Surprisingly kind. Surprisingly gentle. The reason he and Elizabeth made that call out post, frankly speaking, and he tacks another line onto the list.]
... I do want to ask him out at some point, though. I'm just not certain it's the best idea either. For an unrelated to my nerves reason.
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I know he won't, but... it's... quite the fear of mine, that I'll say something wrong or too odd and that'll be the end of it. That doesn't apply just to him either, it's to everyone.
[His other self-- or... the person he's reconstructed from? The him from the other reality. That person is lonely and unhappy, Goro can feel it in different memories and only recently had a few memories that included the warmth of companionship, of something similar to friendship and the small pleasure that comes with it. He's better off than that person now, but he wasn't always. Exclusion is a childhood friend he lost contact with sometime in high school.
He shakes his head, pulling Silver's hands off this time and putting his face in his own instead. A heavier exhale, though he does seem calmer than just before.]
Even if I know it's a stupid thing to think and fear, it won't go away. Maybe he should have called me handful instead of beautisome... I know I can be. Like now. [A beat.] Sorry, you said not to put myself down about it, that's exactly what I'm doing.
Akira likes me, enough that he doesn't mind me hitting on him -- new development, I don't do it often but I'd like to, I want to fluster him as much as he does me -- or maybe he just doesn't care? And he's kissed me a few times now too, though I am certain that's just to tease me. I want to actually kiss him-- this must be weird to hear, I'm sorry.
[He needs to learn to shut up. Take it easy, Silver said. Surprisingly kind. Surprisingly gentle. The reason he and Elizabeth made that call out post, frankly speaking, and he tacks another line onto the list.]
... I do want to ask him out at some point, though. I'm just not certain it's the best idea either. For an unrelated to my nerves reason.